HARDSHIPS Shouldn't Make You Hard
Hardships shouldn't turn you hard. Hardships should soften you so that you can be available for other people.
⬆That to me right there is an extremely tough pill to swallow.⬆ It literally is like a punch to the gut. How many of us find it easy to put up a wall? I personally will do it in an instance. It is a defense mechanism that I have always had. Maybe experiences have required me to put up walls and made me hard. My hardships made me distance myself from others in the past, but after the miscarriage last year it was like God was telling me it was okay to let down all those walls that I had spent so many years putting up brick by brick.
Life has not been easy lately and I find it difficult to get out of bed and go to work with a smile on my face, but God truly gives me the strength each day because I could surely not do it without him. I could easily be distant and perfectly safe behind my walls, but that wouldn't help me or others around me. I want to be a testament of God's mercy and grace. I want people to look at me and think, " man, has she been through it, I wonder how she is able to smile each day?" (My coworkers probably probably wouldn't mind the smiling if singing didn't accompany it.) I just want someone to ask me how I do it. I want them to be able to ask how I can smile, sing, and joke. I want to so badly be able to tell them that it isn't me. If it was up to me I would easily avoid them and just try to make it through each day until I could crawl back into bed.
My hardships lately have tried so hard to define me and some days I feel like they win, but this fight I have in me is God's mercy that what terrible things you go through don't have to make you this hard person. His mercy can turn those terrible things into testimonials for others. Your hardships can help others. So next time you think it's easier to build that wall, let it down and soften your heart to show God's mercy through you.
XO,
Azlynn
⬆That to me right there is an extremely tough pill to swallow.⬆ It literally is like a punch to the gut. How many of us find it easy to put up a wall? I personally will do it in an instance. It is a defense mechanism that I have always had. Maybe experiences have required me to put up walls and made me hard. My hardships made me distance myself from others in the past, but after the miscarriage last year it was like God was telling me it was okay to let down all those walls that I had spent so many years putting up brick by brick.
Life has not been easy lately and I find it difficult to get out of bed and go to work with a smile on my face, but God truly gives me the strength each day because I could surely not do it without him. I could easily be distant and perfectly safe behind my walls, but that wouldn't help me or others around me. I want to be a testament of God's mercy and grace. I want people to look at me and think, " man, has she been through it, I wonder how she is able to smile each day?" (My coworkers probably probably wouldn't mind the smiling if singing didn't accompany it.) I just want someone to ask me how I do it. I want them to be able to ask how I can smile, sing, and joke. I want to so badly be able to tell them that it isn't me. If it was up to me I would easily avoid them and just try to make it through each day until I could crawl back into bed.
My hardships lately have tried so hard to define me and some days I feel like they win, but this fight I have in me is God's mercy that what terrible things you go through don't have to make you this hard person. His mercy can turn those terrible things into testimonials for others. Your hardships can help others. So next time you think it's easier to build that wall, let it down and soften your heart to show God's mercy through you.
XO,
Azlynn
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