Suffer In Silence
I think about everything going on in the world and the problems of people I know and it makes what is going on in my life seem so miniscule. I almost feel selfish at times for feeling the way I do about what I go through because it doesn't seem so bad compared to other people's problems.
Have you ever felt that way? Like your problems are incomparable to what others are going through so you suffer in silence? I had suffered that way for so long that it seemed normal to continue to do so in silence. It wasn't until my therapist (surprise, I talk to a therapist) asked me to write about something that happened to me when I was 19 that I was faced with saying something out loud. Something I had only said out loud to the people closest to me because honestly, who would truly understand the traumatic experience unless they had experienced it themselves?
A miscarriage was hard enough to talk about, but I didn't feel quite so alone when I got it out there because I knew there were others who had experienced it too and could sympathize. What my therapist is asking off me now though, I don't know if it can be done because I have kept it bottled up for 8 years and my fear of it unearthing some terrible fear that I suppressed so many years ago is mind numbing. I pray and I ask y'all to pray for me that God gives me strength to share it with at least her. Who knows I may even gain the courage to share it with y'all. Either way I can no longer suffer in silence anymore.
Have you ever felt that way? Like your problems are incomparable to what others are going through so you suffer in silence? I had suffered that way for so long that it seemed normal to continue to do so in silence. It wasn't until my therapist (surprise, I talk to a therapist) asked me to write about something that happened to me when I was 19 that I was faced with saying something out loud. Something I had only said out loud to the people closest to me because honestly, who would truly understand the traumatic experience unless they had experienced it themselves?
A miscarriage was hard enough to talk about, but I didn't feel quite so alone when I got it out there because I knew there were others who had experienced it too and could sympathize. What my therapist is asking off me now though, I don't know if it can be done because I have kept it bottled up for 8 years and my fear of it unearthing some terrible fear that I suppressed so many years ago is mind numbing. I pray and I ask y'all to pray for me that God gives me strength to share it with at least her. Who knows I may even gain the courage to share it with y'all. Either way I can no longer suffer in silence anymore.
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